Amazing GRACE!!!

I, like all men, i struggle with my flesh. the flesh,the worldly carnal nature found in all men, is perhaps the greatest hindrance to one`s growth as a christian.this is because the flesh is in essence a part of you and so, it knows you in and out.it knows which button to press, when to press them and when to appeal to your senses to get to you. Paul writes in 1 cor 10:12 that he that thinks that he stands should take heed lest he falls. i had a rude reminder of these words of paul recently.
life was going on well for me, better than it had been in a long while. I was on a spiritual high, i was on a roll,in the zone,it couldn't get better than this.then it happened.BAM!.1 strike n i was down.i had failed to notice that as i was living my life to the maximum, my flesh was accumulating its forces deep in the dark alleys of my mind. i was unprepared, caught offguard n swept into the swirling vortex of sin.
How could i do this?how could i betray my Father like this, after all that he has done for me? why didnt i just resist the temptation?Father must be fuming at your disappointing lapse into sin.The questions flooded my mind, one after the other in quick succession,seeking to torment me, trying drive the wedge of failure between me and Father. I felt miserable, i felt weak. i felt like giving up and just letting life take its course.it was at this point that Father`s love and warmth crept into my forlorn heart. at first, i resisted it, knowing that i had let Him down, and i could only expect to let him down again in future. that's when a thought crept into my mind:Father knows and understands my weaknesses,yet he still loves me.He hates the weaknesses, and he was wanted me to overcome them,yet he wasn't going to let me go just because i had succumbed.with these words, a ray of hope broke through my resistance, and soon,the cloud of despair that clouded my life began to dissipate.Like the onset of a storm,the tiny drops of hope that were wetting the dry parched recesses of my heart turned into a raging torrent.I admitted my guilt before father and asked for his forgiveness.i felt the last strongholds of the flesh crumble, and sin had,albeit for a moment, lost its choke hold on me.the Grimm forces of the flesh were thoroughly routed and sent packing to wherever crevices they had crept from, and i,I , i had one more reason to thank Father, one more reason to seek him even more.For once more, his grace had delivered me from the forces of destruction

"for by grace are we saved through faith;it is the gift of God, not of works, lest any man should boast"

-saint Paul(Ephesians 2:8,9)

Meditations on My Lord!

Here i am,just me
not too good, not too bad
just me
and yet,
He loves me just as i am.
He knows all about me
the good, the not so good, the downright ugly
yet
he loves me just the same

My lord,
My friend,
My father
My God

His eyes blaze with bright flames of fire
but he looks at me with compassion.
His voice is like the roar of raging watersm
but he whispers reassurance into my heart
He is all powerful; omnipotent;
but he loves me despite my weaknesses
He is all knowing; omniscient;
but he still loves me despite my ignorance
He is the Almighty God,
but he seeks a relationship with frail man

He strengthens my limbs
invigorates my life
He fills my mouth with laughter
my heart with gladness
He is the best thing thing to happen to me
and I hold on to his promises
confident
He has come through for me in the past
He will come through for me now
and in the future
and
one day, one glorious day
I will see His face!!